wandering around the world

Don't Go Away

2010-03-02T21:49:00.003+08:00

Looking through your eyes,
there's nothing to hide
And you're no longer mine
How could I survive
when you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high?

Can't stop the tears from fallin'
We used to be so fine
when you walked into my life
I tried to reach out for you
just to be with you
My heart is breakin'

Don't Don't Go Away
Baby, don't you know, I miss you so.
Don't Don't Go Away,
I've never been on my own before.

Wooh…. Oh….
Can't you hear me just take me with you
So don't don't go away

Don't Don't Go Away,
Baby, don't you know, I miss you so.
Don't Don't Go Away,
I've never been on my own before.
So won't you feel my heartbeat once more

Sometimes, the deepest of my feelings could easily be described with the lyrics of a simple song.....

Quote

2010-02-07T22:05:00.000+08:00

If there is such a day when you feel like crying, do call me. I can't promise that i'll be able to make you laugh, but at least i can cry with you. If there is such a day when you want to run away, don't be afraid to call me. I can't promise that i'll be able to stop you, but at least i can run away with you. If there is such a day you don't want to listen to anyone, do call me. I promise i'll be there for you and quietly listen to your woes. But if there is such a day when you call and i didn't pick up, hurry rush over to see me. Because that might be the moment when i needed you the most...

Emptiness.....

2009-04-05T23:15:00.004+08:00

I've came back to a home, a home of emptiness.....
Without "her" love, i dun think i'll be able to hold on any much longer
I'd probably have packed up and leave for a short trip before coming back
And hope home will not be so empty anymore after i come back.....

Or maybe its me who chose to feel that way.....

I guess sorrow has got its roots deeper in me than i expected

Sunshine after the rain?

2008-10-21T00:15:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, its been a while since the last time i've actually sat down and blog. Well, dun bother guessing cos the reason is simple: bad habits die hard, which means to say......... I've been lazy again, haha.

Anyways, life's still the same for me just that i've been staying up more often nowadays to study for my final exams and doing all those things that is needed to be done. I've been staying back in school more often as well to do my self revision in the library and i finally understood why Jack always stays in school to study after classes. The place is full of babes la, haha. I mean i know that SIM is full of pretty girls but i never knew pretty girls could be that hard working as well. I've seen some familar faces as often as everyday of the week. LOL, this part really made me sound like i'm there to look at girls instead of studying, kekeke.

My room is beginning to looks like shit (or maybe cos i'm beginning to get bored of it). I think its abt time i start thinking of new ideas and doing something to it. If u guys have any idea, pls feed me some of it ;) And like say bad habits die hard so as usual i've been drawing nonsense in my sketchbook, haha.

I just had my bday (2th Oct) and it was quite a day. I had a satisfying dinner with Sam before going to beer garden for some drinks. It was really a good break from the usual busy schedule of school and work. And of course in return i celebrated Sam's bday with Khoo Fang, Yanling and Hui Ying. We had dinner at Fish & Co. (Jurong Point) and took pics throughout the night. I'll get my hand on it and upload it asap. But i guess Khoo Fang had the most fun that night cos she was jumping around like a little girl who just got a new toy after she got hold of Sam's DLSR and started taking pics the whole night. Finally found a girl who likes photography that much, kekeke.

Well, i have to end here cos i need to head back to book again. 2 weeks more and i'll be back as free as a bird, all done with my exams. Till then, take care & god bless

Exhausted.......

2008-09-16T01:03:00.005+08:00

Hey all, how have things been for all of u?? Hope everyone had a smooth sailing time for the past 2 weeks since my last update. Well, it has been a really exhausting 2 weeks for me, which pretty much amount up to a good reason why i haven't been updating my blog.

I've been through 2 class tests in the past 2 weeks and being the average student i haven't really been revising my school work all these while. So, its more like a last minute struggle to cramp as much stuff as possible into my tiny brain (almost as small as Homer Simpsons's brain) to help me handle the tests and i realised now that its a pretty crazy thing to do for uni education, haha. I've been studying till 2am almost everyday to handle the tests and working as well. So yeah, i'm half dead now and is typing this entry in a semi-consious state. Well, this week is not any much different from last 2 weeks cos another test is coming up next week and i'm still going to work to earn my living. Of course this past 2 weeks haven't been all that boring, some blunters have really been pretty funny for me with the meetup with Sam on sat as the funniest of all. I met up with him last sat nite at Mac cos i need to study for my test and he was suggesting that we meet up for yam cha session. It went like this:

Me: Brother, help me check the schedule see if i working tomorrow or not.
Sam: u working everyday wat, need to check meh?
Me: just check for me la, in case. I remember i working normal tomorrow
Sam: (type.....type.....) oei, u working early tomorrow leh......
Me: (staring at him with a very hollow look) dun tok cock leh, my early shift at the end of the month
Sam: wah lau, u come and see la
Me: (walked over......) argh!!!!! really ah?? tomorrow early is at 10.10 leh!!!
Sam: ya
Me: (started to jump about) siao liao la, i need to study leh..... siao liao, siao liao
Sam: haha, aiyah dun go to work la
Me: dun work no money leh..... sian sian sian..... how siah??
Sam: call in and ask to report for normal la. Fei also did that today
Me: can meh?
Sam: try la. At the most dun go to work lor.
Me: see how la......

At the point my jumping around suddenly died down with Sam continue laughing. Wat a news to be broken to someone who's desperate for more time to study and still need to work at the same time. But then working all this while actually made me realised that its not all the impossible to do wat i'm doing now. And it really makes u learn the true value of money and time. I dun think i'm going to stop working for school, everything is going to work out just fine if i just manage my time properly. This also makes me more independent in both my lifestyle, cash flow and thinking. I guess its a good thing after all.

Well, i've gotta get back to my revision now, i've got more wars to fight. Till my next update, u guys take care ok?

The long awaited update.......

2008-09-01T01:06:00.003+08:00

Well, the title seems like a slap across my face cos to be very honest i was just being lazy to update my blog all this while and nothing more than that. Haha.

Hey all, did u guys missed me? I've been gone for almost 7 months since my last update and sadly to say nothing much had change all this while. I'm still busy with school and will still be till i graduate next June (if nothing terrible goes wrong) and i'm currently working as well to finance my daily expenses at the turf club. School is still a bore and nope i haven't really made any new friends in class (has got something to do with my laziness) except this girl which have since been nicknamed as Mel's babe ever since the rest of the gang saw me talking to her in class, haha. Eileen's a nice girl but i dun think i'll attempt to take any step further with her for the time being with graduating as my top piority above everything else.

A little updates........

i'm finally going for my first incamp training in Nov this year after hiding under the radar for about 2 and a half years. I can't say that i'm happy going back for my incamp but its always good to be given the opportunity of working with my old comrads from NS days and clearing my first high key reservice. Well, guess i'll be gone for 2 weeks in Nov, once again wearing my green "pride and honor" and serving my country.

Rose and Yingren is on very rocky path in their relationship and to comment that although i'm not very surprised by it happening, as a friend i'm still very sad and concern for them now that they are no longer together. Hope things will eventually work out for them but even if it doesn't i still hope the 2 of them can be friends, learn from this relationship and carry the knowledge till the end. (seems like my prophecy really came true)

June's starting school doing a degree with RMIT in Jan and this period of time she's still living a very good life of not doing anything at all....... My dear sister, its about time u start planning ur life. Go learn something or do something for crying out loud. Even if u dun think that working is something for u now, go learn how to drive or take up a foreign languange or sumthing instead of slacking all day at home. :P

Time flies really fast when u're target orientated and in a flash 7 months had passed. Really hope time will slow down for once.......

Hey, anyone of u out there bought the new IPhone 3G? Hope u guys like it...... I still remember in my last post i told u guys to get a IPod Touch 16GB. I've since upgraded to the IPhone 16GB (the 2G model) and i love it. So, my advice still stands....... go get the IPhone if u're a PDA phone lover cos u'll realise that it doesn't run on windows mobile and hence it doesn't lag at all ;)

I've gotta go for now but i promise i'll be back soon with the next update........ (trying not to be lazy anymore) Till then.........

Updates..... Updates

2008-02-24T20:31:00.011+08:00

Hey guys, its has been like almost 1 month plus since the last time i've updated my blog. Been really blur this period of time. It almost like i've went through the whole holidays and school without even knowing what the hell was going on. I've been kinda emo for a while now, but been feeling better already. Dun worry, its the usual man going into the cave to think about stuff theory.

Anyways, school have been a bore (it always has been) and my life haven't been any much more interesting either. Its still the usual, take pics, draw, write in my diary in class and plenty of listening to music on my Ipod Touch 16gb. Apple lovers out there, please save up some money to get one Ipod Touch, its the best Ipod i had man. U guys will seriously love it.

Here's some pics i've taken some time back.....

Some pics taken while i was bumming around. I swear i seriously have got nothing better to do, haha..

These 2 pictures were taken in my room. I was feeling pretty romantic that night so i decided to light up my whole room with tea-light candles. My room look pretty cosy that night and the candles really made me feel even more romantic. But, sadly there isn't anyone in my life to share that moment with me. But i had fun feeling romantic alone that night, the feeling of giving a different feeling to my room kinda satisfied my crave creativity.

Well, school has started again and i've gotta start doing my law assignment before my deadline ends. I guess i'll probably be busy soon. And i'm planning to go over to work for Ren's dad. Hope that work out cos i'm trying to earn some pocket money on my own while i study. If not i'll prob get Kristin to get me a part time job. In any case, i'll prob be very busy once everything starts.

Guys, its almost march and that means we're almost done with 1/4 of this year. Hope all u guys out there haven't wasted the time away like me. But if u have, lets all try to make things straight and do something productive for the rest of this year. Till the next update....... love you all. Peace

Colours of life

2008-01-20T14:09:00.001+08:00

Hey all, i've been rather lazy since school started hence i didn't update my blog for so long. Thus, i guess i better start updating my blog before u guys murder me, haha.

Well, things have been pretty much the same just that i've been drawing more these days, like how i used to a couple of years ago. I kinda stopped drawing ever since army but i dunno how did it started, i'm back to drawing more nowadays. I've probably got too much stuff on my mind, pushing me to do something relaxing, to keep my mind off things.

Anyway before i continue, here's some pictures i've taken at Esplanade while i was drawing and happened to realise how beautiful it was.

I hope they're not too ugly, haha. They are actually taken with my phone's camera. I've been trying to get my hands on a new, cheap camera, probably once my sister returns me the loan i gave her ;)

Well, as i was saying, drawing have always been a channel for me to look into my heart to figure out stuff thats too complicated for my mind to handle. But dun get me wrong, guys. I totally sucked at drawing, half the time only able to draw some wierd shapes and then piece them up and hope that it looks good, haha. Gone were the days when i could still do a bit of still-life drawing and stuff. Wonder if u guys know, drawing is actually a very good way to see wat ur mind and heart is really thinking off most of the time. If u guys haven't try it, go on and try it and u might just find out stuff that u never knew about urself, haha.

Lastly, the CNY is just round the corner. Just in case i dun update my blog again till then, i'll like to wish all of u a very happy CNY. Get more Ang Paos ok?? Its crappy cos i've got friends asking me for Ang Paos cos i'm 27, haha. But here's a reminder. Other than CNY, V days i also just round the corner. So for u lovebirds out there, other than getting Ang Paos, also remember to get something sweet for ur other half cos to me, there's nothing more important that ur bf/gf. Sadly to say, this is going to be another lonesome V day for me, haha. No worries, i'll get over it just fine.

Till my next update, have a happy holidays and stay happy alright?? ;)

Sitting by the sea.....

2008-01-13T05:06:00.001+08:00

Dear all, been pretty busy and admittedly lazy to update my blog. Haha, many things been going on this period of time, the holidays, the return to school and stuff.....

At this point you might wonder why is the title of this entry sitting by the sea. Well, i really wish i'm posting this entry by the sea, but sadly i'm posting it from my room with some vague recollection of the thoughts and feelings i had earlier on when i was at West Coast Park.

Maybe many of you didn't know that i've got this weird habit of going to the beach whenever there's too many things bottled up inside of me and desperately needed to released before i go nuts. I always feel this special bond with the sea. The breeze, the stars and the pitch dark sky never fail to make me feel better whenever i'm trouble by issues, issues that couldn't be solved or crossroads in my life where i'm stuck, not knowing where to head to next.

Well, this time round i'm stuck at a crossroad..... not knowing where to turn next. Therefore once again i'm here by the beach, staring straight up into the sky, gazing at the stars high above, feeling the gentle breeze on my skin and seeking solitude in this world of my own. Looking at the stars high up in the sky, the Orion's belt, big and little Dippers, thin but visible clouds floating freely across the sky. Somehow all these gives me a channel, a channel to look deep into my heart and search for an answer, an answer to many of my questions where the logical thinking of the brain could never provide me with. I couldn't say its always that smooth flowing in my search for an answer. Well, this time round, i did not find an answer..... my mind is still blur, my heart is still heavy. But i'm glad i came to the beach, the breeze really made me feel better, at least not as vexed as before. I hear a voice in my heart this time round, an advice take my mind of things and let my heart show me the way in due time. Maybe thats the best solution for me right now.....

To the breeze, the stars and the sky, i thank you..... for accepting me into your kind hands, for letting me seek solitude in your arms. Thank you friend, i could always count on you.....

By audience request.....

2007-12-28T02:09:00.000+08:00

Well, Christmas came and gone so fast i couldn't even keep up with time. Hope all my friends and colleagues enjoyed a wonderful Christmas but remember to keep the energy level up cos there's new year party to come.

My Christmas celebration had really been a good one. Cos it happens that Rose's birthday is on the eve of Christmas itself, so the whole group of us celebrated the 2 events together. Thank you Rose, Ren and June mei mei for my Christmas present. I really like them a lot ;) Anyways, we had a bbq at Ren's place, this time round a more quiet and but well designed pit in the condo vicinity. There was so much food, ribs, sausages, bacon, prawns, soup and many more. I really had my fill that night.

Anyways, June went shopping with Jeremy during the day and bought quite a lot of stuff. One particular toy really made our day that night. June bought this toy from Toys'R'us, this helmet that will drench anybody who wears it and and got the wrong rod pulled out. You see, the toy is made in such a way that there is a small reservoir at the top filled with water and many plastic rods joined to the reservoir. Each one gets a turn to remove one of the rod and the game continues till someone remove the trigger rod and water will then flow into the helmet, drenching whosoever who i wearing the helmet at that time. A really funny game and many pictures and videos taken while we played the game. Will upload the pictures once the rest pass them to me.

I bought Rose and Ren a photo album from Prints for Christmas. I hope they'll like it and i really thank them for the Polo T-shirt they bought for me (in both my favourite colours). I really like it a ot. Thank you ;)

I'll try to get hold of the pictures ASAP so that i can load it up here for all to see, the fun and laughter we had that night ;)

Well, up and coming is the NYE party which i hope we can have another round of fun and laughter. Meanwhile , i wish everyone out there a Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year. A new year means new opportunities and a fresh start. I'm really looking forward for it and i hope its the same for everyone else out there. Take care all, God bless and i love you all.

Rain....... "snow of the tropical country"

2007-12-12T16:14:00.000+08:00

How time flies, its already the 2nd last week of my employment here at BP. It such a mystery how time could pass by so fast when one is busy, haha. I've finally finished almost all that is needed to be done here at work, i could finally hand over my duties to my colleagues and enjoy myself a little bit here at work till the end of my contract.

Its really been raining these few days, from heavy rain to light drizzle. I'm really having trouble waking up and going to work in the morning. But strangely, i kinda enjoy the weather. Especially at night when it drizzle a little and u're at home feeling full from dinner and enjoying a cup of hot chamomile tea while standing by the window looking outside into the streets. I find such activities extremely relaxing and it really help me unwind from a busy day. Its also from all these moment do i began to admire the beauty of the rainy season.

Just looking at the tiny drop of the rain, floating down slowly from the sky. They really look like snowflakes from my window view, making me feel like somewhere else in the world having winter season going on and just enjoying the season, watching the beauty of this world. The cool gentle breeze, the cold weather and the warmth brought along by a simple cup of tea.

But somewhat, this cool weather also brought back quite a lot of memories. Its around this time "that" happened. Till now its still kinda painful for me........ maybe i've not fully gotten out of it yet. Better not talk abt that too much.........

Anyway, some updates.........

Rose's back from Thailand already and she bought me a lovely batch of scented candles. Thank you so much, Rose. And my little brother , Ren, been really crazy for a while already, haha. Heaven't heard from Brian for a while already, probably busy from work. But last i heard Amy never contacted him since that night........ i guess thats a good thing. I also heard she got back with her bf already so thats good i guess....... nothing's better than realising at the end who do u truly want to be with and have the chance to have it happen.

As for me....... haha, still in my small little room enjoying my tea and the scenery outside of my window. A little meditation sometimes and plenty of computer games ( i swear its super unhealthy). I really feel like travelling somewhere this holiday, but current situation is not smiling at me. Vietnam is like raining cos they have monsoon season as well, Myanmar and Cambodia is still pretty chaotic. I can always go to Bangkok but i dun really wanna be reminded of the "memories" i had there (just feeling sad about it). Well...... hopefully i can make up my mind soon and decide on a place to go quick before school starts. If not, maybe i can try to meditate my way out of my room and let my soul travel for me instead, haha.

Till then............

I'm back ;)

2007-12-05T15:13:00.000+08:00

Hey all, sorry for not being able to update the blog for so long. I've been really busy at work, so busy i almost forgot my own name, haha. Anyways, its finally december, all my work has been cleared up and i'm now just waiting for the end of my contract with BP and awaits the return to school again. Can't wait for that day to come.....(i desperately need a break from work).

Ah, christmas season is coming again. Although i dun really like the season (read my earlier entry, u'll know why), i'm also glad its coming cos all the lights in Orchard Rd is up and running and its time for me to go and snap up some good photos for my collection (hehe, taking advantage of the season). I pass by town area when i go from work everyday and i've seen the lightings and decorations. A pretty cool sight, nice theme this year. I think the theme this year is snowy snowy christmas, the name of the theme is pretty lame but everything else is pretty impressive. Hmmm, i wonder will i get any christmas presents this year.........

Well, nowadays things became a lot more quiet that before. Rose went back to thailand, Yin Ren's pretty normal other that the fact that he's super into PS3 he plays to get a 37 inch LCD tv just for the sole purpose of playing games with super HD graphics, haha. Amy and Brian's little escapade is over (i think so, and if thats really the case i hope this decision last) and pardon me but i'm still a little cross with Brian. I know this is going to sound funny or even stupid but i just can't help it. I began to feel my anger with Brian when i got to know that he used my "line" when i was asking Kelly to be my gf last time. The "line" is nothing special, not a pick up line i always use or something , just some truth out of my purest heart then. Brian used that "line" on Amy and when i got to know it, the first thing that came to my mind was, "wat the hell, Brian. You're not very creative, are you?" Wat i'm trying to say is that i got this feeling that of being copied, being stalked. But to be honest, the feeling didn't resulted to anything, i soon forgotten about the whole thing until recently.

A few days back, Brian wanted to go whack Amy's bf and he called Yin Ren along. Ren called me to tell me about it and i told him to just ignore Brian. Cos to me, its just dumb and childish to do that. Then later that night, i heard that Brian sort of used the things i've quoted in some conversations to justify for his actions and behaviour. That came as a last straw for me. All that was going through my mind was, "wat the hell?? First you used my line, now u used my quotes to justify for your actions." I admit at this point this is all still a presumption game, cos i haven't hear Brian's explanation. But i dun plan to get his explanation anymore, cos its not really such a big deal and i refuse to waste my brain cells over such trival matters. We're still friends, and i just hope if Brian do read this, my only advice (if you need any) is that u're 24 already and i seriously think your actions that night is pure childish and maybe its time for you to let go of your foolishness and childishness and muture into adulthood, this is my true advice to you as a friend.

Anyways, christmas is just round the corner. I hope to take many many beautiful pictures to add to my collection and have a very happy and blissful christmas. I hope that same to my family and all my friends out there. Merry christmas and a happy new year ;)

Till the next time...........

Updates

2007-11-23T17:13:00.000+08:00

OMG, i've been so busy at work for the past few weeks. I'm so glad i'm finally able to slow down the pace now and chill a little. Last few weeks had been so systematic i felt like i was a robot programmed to carry out a routine that last 24/7, haha.

Oh, btw, after ignoring so many invitations to join facebook, i've finally gave in and created an account. Facebook's not really that bad, plenty of games to play and stuff. I also got hooked up with some old friends again, after i've deleted my friendster account.

I found Kelly on Facebook too, and i've sent out a friend request to her but she didn't reply. I guess she really doesn't want to be friends anymore. Maybe she really wants me completely out of her life. Well, nothing i could do about it. I just have to let her be.......... :(

Well, guys this is going to be a short entry...... Till then, take care all..... :)

Plans till the end of the year?

2007-11-14T16:58:00.001+08:00

Man, been really busy for the past 2 weeks and i really couldn't find time to update my blog. And what made it worse it i'm kinda down with fever now =(

Anyways, Xiaotian just called me and we made arrangements to have our friendly gathering for the Christmas on the 14th of Dec. Really can't wait for that day to come cos the last time i've seen them was like almost a year ago (when i was still with Kelly.....). Sadly, this year i'll have to go on my own.

Meeting up on the 14th really sounds good, cos it marks my march into my last week of employment (after that i'll be a free bird for a while, haha) and also my Christmas celebrations with Ying ren and the rest. I'll really wish to go somewhere overseas after Christmas, still big on my Angkor Wat trip. But my mum's kinda discouraging me on going there, but instead go with her to China since we have spare tickets leftover this year. (My dad works in China so we get to fly there for free 4 times a year, everything paid for).

Man, really dunno where i should go now. I've have to decide soon before it gets too late for me to book tickets. Time to run away for a while, time to be free for a while............ till then

Christmas, christmas

2007-11-02T13:28:00.000+08:00

Well, how time flies. I've already been working for 3 months now. With more income flowing in then compared to before (used to be pocket money from parents) and my contract extended till 21th of Dec, i can really start planning what to do with that short span of time before school starts. Well, you pretty much would have guess, Vietnam trip is off =(

Well, i had to call it off cos there is really not enough time to cover the whole of Vietnam even if i begin my trip on the 10th of Dec. So my target is shifted to Angkor Wat instead, planning to leave on the 26th and travel till probably new year eve (cos the whole bunch wants me to be around during Christmas). Short 5-6 days but should be enough to cover the whole of Angkor Wat.

But what about before Christmas, those few days from the 22th to 25th in Singapore? What ami going to do here? There's really nothing to do. To me its a horrific experience to go downtown on Christmas eve and nothing much will be going on anywhere else on this small island.

Brian suggested a road trip to Malaysia, which i'm skeptical about but nevertheless agreeable if all are in for it. "Lets see how things go", that the best response i could give him. The best "we" can do, is to try and plan something out this weekend, and hope that the plan flourishes when the time comes. I need to travel, that the only thing on my mind now. Cos that stretch of the year, from 21th till 26th, really have a big impact on me. Painful memories linger around those few days, which i seriously dun want to be reminded of, when it comes.

Well, it also time to travel anyway, time to fill in new adventures into my log of journey around the world. Christmas, christmas........ time for me to go.......

The movie that melted my heart......不能说的秘密(Secret)

2007-10-30T15:38:00.000+08:00

I've seen the ads, heard about it from friends, and even the posters at the cinema. But i just didn't had the time to watch it. But its just funny cos all this while i have this wierd urge to watch this movie, even after the movie had been dropped from the movie listing i still wanted to watch the movie. Just nice, ren rented the movie and this is how i got the chance to watch the movie, allowed it to flow into me and melted my heart. I really dunno why, i just like the movie that much......

And the funny thing is that the day before i was still telling rose how ren always know what kinda girls i like. He pretty much know which girl i'm looking at when a bunch of them walk pass us. Many have asked me what kinda girl i like and i could never really fully describe it........ until i watch the movie.

This is the kinda girl i like:

I know at this point many of you might think i like her becos she's sweet looking and stuff. Thats just one of the reason why i like her. If you're watch the movie, you'll know that in the movie, the role she played is the type of girl who's very true to her feelings. If she likes a guy, she'll not hide it from the guy. She's also very true to her heart, very true to her own feelings. I like the way she plays around with Jay Chou in the movie, the poking of the face, the conversations they have, the way they chatted with each other....... I just like her character in the movie.

Conclusion: If i'm ever so lucky to find someone like her in my life and be together with her, I think there's nothing much in life i could regret anymore. I am "that sort" of a guy, my love for my better half is more important than anything in this world. Probably thats why i've always been a sucker for romance films..... haha.

May there be a day when i find her, the one who will walk with me till the end.......

Drink, Drank, Drunk

2007-10-26T10:25:00.000+08:00

I never really know how much alcohol i can have before i hit my limit. Because there's always this voice inside me reminding me not to have too much to drink. No matter how bad the situation was, i always manage to make my way home after drinking. Puking is another story. Many of a time, i drank so much i puked like there was no tomorrow. I do have bad experience with alcohol, but i still enjoy a little alcohol in my life.

But nothing i've gone through prepared me for last night.....

I was at a company function last night, a dinner at a pretty good restaraunt at Regent Hotel. There was quite a lot of important guest and i was pretty busy introducing myself to some customers that i've been working with always through the phone and emails but never face to face. Cocktails were served at the door and i had a few before the actual dinner started. The moment i sat down at my seat, one of my Sales guys looked at me and went "Mel, red wine for you right?" and he happily got the waitress to get me a glass before i even had a chance to react. My first glass was Merlot and it tasted ok, year 2005 harvest i presume. My second and third glass was Merlot too until the restaraunt decided that they had served enough Merlot (they ran out of it) and started serving Cabinet Sauvignon and i had a few more glasses before my face blushed like a tomato. My boss came over and gave a tap on my should asking me if i'm alright and i replied that i'm ok. Then he went on cracking jokes about how its not going to be ok for him later when he give me a ride home cos if we do get stop at any road blocks along the way, the cops will probably think he drank a lot too. (All my bosses and colleagues love to joke around) We went on with our dinner till the end, sent off the guests and decided that we shouldn't call it a day with having another bottle of Chivas. I swear when the bottle appeared in front of me, it seemed like the beginning of a nightmare. Well, we drank, finished the bottle and all left for home. Thats when i called Ren to comfirm plans for today, "surprisingly" to discover that Ren and Rose quarelled again. AND this time its bad.

So happily i took a quick shower and went over to Rose's place. Got into the house and listened to the story that took place before making comments. Then Ren decided to pack up, and i had to leave with him cos i dun want anything bad to happen. We then went to the nearby coffee shop where Brian ordered beer......

So the same story goes over again, i drank the beer, feel the pinch in my tummy and continue to drink. (i only drank a bit of the 3 bottles of beer they bought).

Killer came this morning when i woke up. My tummy twitched bad and i didn't have any appetite till now.

Thus, moral of the story is drink till you drop, but never mix the kind of alcohol you drink. It WILL do you bad......

Change of plans???

2007-10-23T09:31:00.000+08:00

Well, been working for sometime now. And i'm seeing the bond i have with my colleagues. I really feel so comfortable working with them as a team, see the progress as a team. Makes me wonder why i've been so lucky in my life. Even since i turned 16, i've been working part-time jobs during the holidays. From the job as a shop assistant in a sport equipment store, to a security monitoring crew at a security monitoring centre, and now to this, ive been really blessed to meet really nice and cooperative colleagues. Even during my army days, my fellow camp mates some of the people i'll never forget, the hardship we've been thru together, the fun days we've shared, its all memories now but is a part of memory i'll never forget.

I'm supposed to finish work on the 7th of Dec after which will be my trip to HCM, but i've decided to stay and work, with my team of colleagues who have supported me in many area of work where i was once green, and to stick around with them till the end.

Hence, i might change my plans for my big trip. I'll probably work till the 22th of Dec and stay thru Christmas (becos Yingren and gang wants me to) and leave on the 26th not to HCM anymore (cos Vietnam is too big for me to complete in 1 week), but instead to Angkor Wat. I'll probably be able to complete the whole of Angkor Wat in a week.

But my plans now is not fixed yet, just waiting for my boss's approval for my stay till the 22nd...... till then

.......... ("forgive me, i'm brain-dead")

2007-10-15T09:30:00.000+08:00

Its now 9.30am and i'm sitting comfortably at my desk in the office. I'm staring at the monitor, typing this entry and enjoying the silence in the office this morning. Usually at this hour of the morning i'll be downstairs having a cigarette looking at all the surrounding building, finding good angles to use to capture nice pictures. But i'm not "in the mood" to do that today and the reason is simple..... I've got insomnia last night and i haven't slept a wink since yesterday afternoon. So the staring of my monitor is more like staring blank. I'll be very frank, i'm 30% conscious now and i dun really know half of what i'm typing now, but its all good because some say when u're not mentally conscious every word is truly from ur heart and not covered up in anyway that only the brain is capable of doing.

I'm probably going home at lunch time, if not i think i'll die of exhaustion.....

wakey wakey, rise and shine

2007-10-12T10:38:00.000+08:00

After being a nocturnal animal for so many years, for once i actually feel that sleep is so essential to a person. My life had became somewhat dull this period of time, probably becos i started working life. Everything is fixed in this order, wakey at 6.30am for work --> playing games online after i reach home from work --> turn on simpsons from my comp and watch till 1.30am, sleep for the day. And if u do realise i sleep abt 5 hours a day, sometimes even lesser than that (i do suffer from occasional insomia), makes me realise my body is desperately begging for more rest.

And how do i know it?? Simple. I've been having more deams than usual, probabaly cos i keep my mind active for too long everyday (24 - 5 = 19 hrs ---> omg). And trust me, by watching simpsons just before i go to bed keeps my mind active for another 2 more hours after i fall asleep (thus causing dreams).

The worst attack happened just a couple of hours ago, i woke up feeling like i've worked through my sleep. My current job is quite a relaxing, which explains how i can finish this entry (yes, i'm blogging at work), and is not stressful at all. So if i'm not stressed with work at all, how come i dreaming of working when i sleep? I guess i need to sleep through this weekend already......

Still big on my Vietnam trip

2007-10-11T14:45:00.000+08:00

All this while i've been wanting to visit a worn torn country, probably triggered by my interest in history in this region. And my new found interest, photography, just trigger my crave even more. Vietnam, the country i've decided on, not that commercialised yet and a country to visit before everything there changes.

Been planning for a while already. Finding a job to fund my trip (i'm not nicked Purelazy for nothing), getting info (thank you, my dearest sister), planning the route of travel, etc. I've recently added another location to go in my 2 weeks trip, going to this town call Hue, which is along my planned route up to Hanoi from HCM. I heard the scenery there is beautiful, lush greenery and mountains, village life. Something you won't get to see in our well developed Singapore. A definite location to go for photography fanatics.

Now i just hope the typhoon will leave HCM before i embark on my journey, my journey to Vietnam......