Sitting by the sea.....

Dear all, been pretty busy and admittedly lazy to update my blog. Haha, many things been going on this period of time, the holidays, the return to school and stuff.....

At this point you might wonder why is the title of this entry sitting by the sea. Well, i really wish i'm posting this entry by the sea, but sadly i'm posting it from my room with some vague recollection of the thoughts and feelings i had earlier on when i was at West Coast Park.

Maybe many of you didn't know that i've got this weird habit of going to the beach whenever there's too many things bottled up inside of me and desperately needed to released before i go nuts. I always feel this special bond with the sea. The breeze, the stars and the pitch dark sky never fail to make me feel better whenever i'm trouble by issues, issues that couldn't be solved or crossroads in my life where i'm stuck, not knowing where to head to next.

Well, this time round i'm stuck at a crossroad..... not knowing where to turn next. Therefore once again i'm here by the beach, staring straight up into the sky, gazing at the stars high above, feeling the gentle breeze on my skin and seeking solitude in this world of my own. Looking at the stars high up in the sky, the Orion's belt, big and little Dippers, thin but visible clouds floating freely across the sky. Somehow all these gives me a channel, a channel to look deep into my heart and search for an answer, an answer to many of my questions where the logical thinking of the brain could never provide me with. I couldn't say its always that smooth flowing in my search for an answer. Well, this time round, i did not find an answer..... my mind is still blur, my heart is still heavy. But i'm glad i came to the beach, the breeze really made me feel better, at least not as vexed as before. I hear a voice in my heart this time round, an advice take my mind of things and let my heart show me the way in due time. Maybe thats the best solution for me right now.....

To the breeze, the stars and the sky, i thank you..... for accepting me into your kind hands, for letting me seek solitude in your arms. Thank you friend, i could always count on you.....